Sunday, August 10, 2025

Aspirations

"Aspiration" from the Latin "ad spirare" ("breathe to") generally refers to deep, passionate desire or ambition. Medically it refers to a suction of liquids. In Catholic spirituality it means a short (few words) prayer.

Over half of my prayer is done in very small portions: aspirations. As I age (now completing my 78th year) I like everything small: work, food, exercise, reading, writing and prayer. My understanding of the itinerary into senility is to grow small, to strengthen and intensify evangelical childhood. These are short, sweet, standard prayers. They engage heart, will and intellect in a simple movement (in the Holy Spirit) towards God. The effort involved is minimal. My favorite twelve:

- I come to You as a poor man, in need of your mercy, in need of your love.

- Jesus, I trust in You.

- Let your mercy be upon us as we place our trust in you.

- My mother, I place myself under the mantle of your holiness, your purity, your tenderness, your beauty and your love.

- One thing I ask of the Lord, this alone I seek: to dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life.

- We adore You O Christ and we bless You, because by your holy cross You have redeemed the world.

- Jesus, come into my heart; posses me; bring me...by the strength and gentleness, the fire and sweetness of your Holy Spirit...to our heavenly Father.

- Lord, I surrender myself to you. Take care of everything. Infuse in myself, yourself; infuse in yourself, myself.

- Lord Jesus Christ, only Son of the Living God, have mercy upon me a sinner.

- Draw me to yourself, O Lord; fill me with your love.

- Let my weakness, my longing, my sadness...draw me to You...and draw You to me. 

- Come Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful. Enkindle in them the fire of your love. Send forth your Spirit and we shall be created and You shall renew the face of the earth.


These are simple, easy, precise, sweet, peaceful, comforting, uplifting, strengthening. And you can make up your own or use the standard ones. It doesn't get any better than that!

Saturday, August 9, 2025

Lord, I Need You

 What follows (a further elaboration of a prayer shared in Dec. 2024) is inspired by Matt Mahr's marvelous song of the same title.

Lord, I need You...Desperately.

I want you...above all things and persons...and all persons and things only from You, in You, with You, to You and through You.

I choose You...and renounce all that is not of You.

I desire You...with urgent and passionate cravings.

I seek You...and find You...in every gift you send and every trial You allow.

I invite and welcome You...As I am already invited and welcomed by You.

I beg You...as I am already begged by You.


I receive You.


I thank You.

I rest in You.

I delight in You.

I abide and bear fruit in You.

I move in You.

I breathe, sleep, wake, feel, think, decide, act, relate, wage war, make love...in You.

I trust You.

I hope in You.

I love You.

I adore You.

I serve You.

Friday, August 8, 2025

Great Feminine Thinkers of our Time

 Restraining my masculine proclivity for numerical ratings and hierarchical rankings, I will nevertheless mention first women who have most influenced our time (and myself) by the quality of their life (holiness, heroism) and thought (depth, freshness, fidelity to the Gospel.) Here are 40 who come to mind.

St. Theresa of Lisieux

St. Mother Teresa of Calcutta

St. Faustina

St. Theresa Benedicta of the Cross (Edith Stein)

Mother Angelica

Adrienne von Speyr

St. Mother Katherine Drexell, St. Mother Francis Xavier Cabrini, Rose Hawthorne, Mother Margaret Cusak, St. Mother Mary Anne Cope, St. Mother Jeanne Jadot

Dorothy Day, Catherine de Hueck Dougherty, Madalene Delbrel

Chiara Lubich

St. Elizabeth of the Trinity

Caryll Houselander

Elizabeth Lisieux

Carmen Hernandez

Simone Weil. Hannah Arendt

Elizabeth Anscombe

Mary Healy

Heather King

Flannery O'Connor, Sigrid Undset

Mary Anne Glendon, Patricia Snow, Mary Eberstadt

Blessed Maria Teresa Demjonovich

Etty Helison and Anne Frank

Ruth Carter Stapleton, Katherine Kulhman

Raissa Maritain and Alice von Hildebrandt

Rhonda Chervin


Since God's greatest creations are: holiness of life, women and brilliance in thought, this list here is clearly Fleckinstein's singular greatest list. It will not, cannot be surpassed.

It goes without saying that our Blessed Mother Mary is the decisive feminine influence on our time, but she transcends any list of any kind as God's  singularly great creation.

We finish this exercise by commending ourselves to her influence and that of the women above who mirror her so luminously.

Wednesday, August 6, 2025

Fascination of the Hourglass Female Shape

 Across all cultures, regardless of body type (big/small, lean/large, tall/short) or ethnicity, the hourglass female shape is found  to be universally most attractive. A waist/hip ratio under .7 is ideal. Traditionally we think of 36/24/36 (with a ration of .67)as the perfect womanly shape. Why is this? The evolutionary reductionist, with the dreary calculus of "survival of the fittest" will creatively devise some scheme to prove the curvy female ensures continuance of the species. So mechanical/technical/boring/tiring! So lacking in loveliness, drama, insight, fascination! We offer here a more metaphysical and then a very physical cause for this fascination.

Consider the shapes of all our numbers from 0-9: all are combinations of straight lines, ovals and circles. The simplest are 0 and 1. But by far the most excellent in regards to visual pleasure, harmony, integrity, complexity/simplicity, and the suggestion of abundance is 8. The hourglass female shape reflects the figure 8 in its interior, substantial integrity, harmony, simplicity, abundance. The 8 is two shapes, two 0s, which retain their own integrity as they touch each other, creating a new, more complex and fascinating shape. Neither of the 0s is compromised, devoured, violated, compromised or dominant. Each is perfectly itself. This makes it, of course, a perfect symbol of  marriage in which each spouse retains, without compromise or corruption, his/her identity and gender, even as an entirely new, in some ways superior, entity is created, the marriage/family. We are suggesting here that in the multiple-layered Miraculous Analogy of Creation, the number 8 and the female shape both express a Divine Intuition about Being as beautiful, simple/complex, fruitful, harmonious and spousal.

Now we turn to two very physical, biological masculine drives which contrast with each other, in less than absolute contradiction, but together create enormous tension: the paternal and the infantile.

The better one, by far, is the paternal: the physical urge within masculine strength to provide, protect, shelter, nurture, and give life. In this the male is drawn to the female as small, precious, cute, needy, vulnerable, and appealing. Hormone-wise we are dealing with large doses of oxytocin, testosterone and serotonin. The female in her maternity experiences similar surges of energy before a cute and especially a suffering baby. This urge is of its nature generous, not needy, but responsive of masculine strength to what is smaller, vulnerable and precious. Thus, the slim waste and smaller proportions of the female evoke this powerful paternal, husbandly urge.

On the other hand we have the infantile regression within male sexuality. Freud spoke of the "death wish." We see here the urge to return to the protection and pleasure of the womb and breast. The union of the fetus and baby with the mother is in large part one of inchoate, paradisal union and  pleasure. With weaning and development this happy condition is lost permanently. The male retains a residual grief, a longing to return to pure happiness. Pathological inclinations to addictions, including chemical but also sexual/romantic, draw from this yearning to escape the pain of life and return to the pleasure of the womb and the breast. The wholesome man will experience this in modest proportion and  countervail by more generous, healthy energies. But attractive female abundance, below and above the waist, clearly awaken this longing. And so we find in pornography concentration especially on these two aspects of the female form, which contrast with the slim waist.

Consider two distinct types of female allure, appealing to the paternal and the infantile: the voluptuous, curvaceous figures of Marilyn Monroe or Pamela Anderson clearly appeal to the infantile craving. On the other hand, the slim, petite figures of Audrey Hepburn or Kiera Knightly arouse the more generous virile drives (think Gregory Peck protecting the princess in Roman Holiday). These two are not contradictory of or incompatible with each other. Ordinarily, women combine the two: think Grace Kelly, Ingrid Bergman, Halley Berry, Gweneth Paltrow. 

To summarize: the male gaze upon the hourglass feminine form evokes a powerful fascination and intoxication as it includes: an aesthetic perception of a geometric form that is inherently expressive of abundance, harmony, integrity; a regressive compulsion toward a memory of pleasurable union without pain; and the generous urge to care for the precious, the little, the vulnerable. We are dealing here with a "perfect storm" of infatuation and obsession.

All of this occurs independent of the male perception of the more sublime perfection of the female face: the symmetry, welcoming lips, bright smile and, above all, the eyes, which are themselves window into the womanly heart and soul. This perception of the womanly heart through the eyes and facial expressions awakens the most significant masculine response to woman: reverence. More than anything else, the male is called to a posture of wonder, respect and awe before the tender, generous, welcoming feminine soul. 

This is what Adam voiced when he first saw Eve: "This at last is bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh!" He recognized his equal, his partner, his spouse. But he recognized her as different from himself, as wo-man. 

In his subconscious memory of his mother, the man recalls, even more than the grief of separation, the primal union, the safety, the pleasure. And so, he carries always a foundational gratitude to mother. This joyous debt, founded on a sense of wellbeing and communion with the benevolent womb/breast/face/arms, is transferred to every woman. The protection, pleasure, and care he received for the months and years within the maternal embrace abide in the memory; and surge in a gesture of reciprocation to any and every woman he encounters, especially those who are vulnerable, suffering, or noble.

The lifelong task of every man...the "itinerary of virility"...is to inflame this tenderness and reverence, and restrain/minimize the residual infantile compulsions. Obviously, modesty in dress on the part of women, especially those who are more voluptuous, is helpful for us men. Unfortunately, fashion encourages maximum exposure, rather than modest camouflage of the hourglass figure. 

For the man "custody of the eyes" is essential.  This requires, first of all, honest and realistic awareness of one's own weakness (of concupiscence) before the female shape. It means refraining from the lustful, pornographic glance of the infantile impulse. But even more important is  positive attention to the preciousness and nobility of the woman, manifest primarily in the face, which evokes tenderness and reverence. 

Especially helpful, for the man drawn into the inebriation of lust and covetousness, is prayer: acknowledgement of poverty and need; praise for the beauty of the woman in every dimension including this hourglass shape; and prayer for her in her neediness and splendor.


Sunday, August 3, 2025

Catholicism, 1965-2025: Collapse, Abiding Continuity, Surges of Revival

 Catastrophic Collapse

Immediately, in 1965, with the conclusion of Vatican Council II and the explosion of the Cultural Revolution, the thriving Catholic Revival of the postwar period exhausted itself and the expansive institutional Church collapsed catastrophically. We are still in this process. Numerically...mass attendance, vocations, school closings, weddings, etc...we are perhaps 25% of what we were in 1960 in the USA and Europe. 

Lest we surrender to despair or nostalgia note that numbers do not tell the whole truth. That Catholicism would not have collapsed if it's interior strengths, spiritually and intellectually, matched its numbers. Even as a teenager in the earlier 1960s I recall reading criticisms that Catholic piety at the time was superficial, that many went to mass on Sunday because everyone was doing so, out of social pressure, rather than genuine love of God. And so, a case can be made that the loss of 75% was of many who were insincere or half-hearted. Only God can judge the heart. 

Clearly, in any case, we entered a period of chaotic turmoil and change, a mass exodus from the Church, and a cultural/theological war between the progressive and the conservative/traditional Churches. 

Abiding Continuity

Amidst all this volatility, rapid change and conflict what is perhaps largely underestimated is a widespread, quiet, unpretentious stability of the Church. While intellectuals, theologians, and journalists have been fighting furiously in the intellectual arenas, the simple Catholic faith continues to be practiced by the faithful, in ordinary parishes, with modest, humble priests. Catholic life continues within the sacramental economy: birth/baptism, growth/confirmation, sin/confession, marriage/childbirth, anointing/sin/death. The primary, foundational fact of Catholicism is not the culture war, but the permanent, abiding presence of Christ, quintessentially in the Eucharist and in a million practices, prayers, beliefs, sacramentals.

The powerful, iconic appeal of Pope Leo XIV is in part due to the remarkable radiance of stability, certitude, calm, confidence and permanence. He came of age in a world and Church already cast into chaos, yet a distinctive dispensation of stability seems to have been granted him. Everything about his personal history, style and deportment suggests a sublime attachment to the eternal in this world of conflict and chaos.

I myself practice the same Catholic faith that my parents received from their parents. My grandchildren are now receiving that same faith from their parents. That is five generations: over 100 years of quiet, modest continuity. That is the decisive fact of our faith!  In this crazy world of transience, fluidity, impermanence and flux there is a single point of absolute certainty, serenity, and stability: our Eucharistic Christ drawing us into the eternal life of the Trinity.

Dramatic Surges of Revival

Imagining the Church as a large garden, we see it has become overgrown with dead plants, weeds, and wild out-of-control vegetation...desperately in need of cleaning, decluttering, trimming. But fundamentally, there remain rich soil, fresh streams, sunlight and a permanent base of wholesome, fruitful plants. Additionally, we will see that there is a rich variety of streams of renewal, bringing fresh life to the garden. Over the last 60 years, we see:

1. Vatican Council Itself.

The Council with an overwhelming consensus of the bishops summed up decades of ecclesial development and refigured the Church, with primacy of focus on the person/event of Jesus Christ, clearly in regards to liturgy, ecumenical union with other Churches, the primacy of religious liberty, dialogue with the broader secular culture, receptivity to the good in other religions,  a renewed relationship with Judaism, and a return to the sources of our faith.

2. Dual Pontificate of John Paul and Benedict.

This remarkable "tag team," already participant in the Council as outstanding young bishop and theologian authoritatively defined the meaning of that event and in God's providence unveiled an ancient-yet-fresh theological vision for the Church going into its third millenium. 

3. Renewal Movements.

A dizzying richness of dramatic events followed the Council: the lay renewal movements but also distinct developments including The Latin Mass, home schooling, small classic Catholic colleges, EWTN, and countercultural journals and literature.

4. Catholic-Evangelical Alliance.

The ecumenical reconciliation with mainline Protestantism widely anticipated in the Council was largely frustrated as the liberal congregations capitulated to the agenda of sexual liberation, including but not limited to abortion. In reaction, Catholics and Evangelical were drawn to each other in alliance against Cultural Progressivism and awareness of their union in the fundamentals of the faith.

5. Theology of the Body.

This singular achievement merits its own mention as the definitive response to the Sexual Revolution.

6. Hans Urs von Balthasar.

This Swiss theological genius, the towering Catholic intellectual of the 20th century, was ironically not present at the Council. But his monumental intellectual work will accompany that Council into the future.

7. Emergence of the African Church.

The loss of the faith in Europe is inverted in the global South, especially Africa, where we see increase in numbers, fidelity to tradition, the blood of martyrs across the continent at the hands of Islamic violence, and waves of missionaries even to the USA and Europe.

Conclusion

Holy Mother Church is ever ancient and enduring, yet always fresh, virginal and fruitful. We are living through a period of massive demolition and decluttering of bureaucracy and overgrowth. Yet there abides what is perennial, true, good and beautiful. Even as God blesses us with fresh outpourings of heavenly blessings.

It is a wonderful time to be Catholic!




Saturday, August 2, 2025

The Patient Urgency of the Transcendent

 In my 25 year career at UPS, the worst that could be said of a supervisor or candidate for management was: "No sense of urgency!" Everything at UPS was urgent, stressful, anxious: combating weather, human error, accidents, strikes, breakdowns and laziness to deliver the packages on time, safely, in compliance with rules, efficiently, and cost effectively. The management person had to be aggressive, but especially urgent to get the job done.

By contrast, the urgency of the Transcendent is free of anxiety, time worries, and negativity of any sort. It flows from abundance and therefore is entirely positive and patient. 

The primal, metaphysical urgency was, of course, that of the Trinity to share its Glory...with creation, with us. And then, as we fell into sin, the urgency to retrieve us back into fulness of life. That urgency sent Christ to earth, into the flesh, and to the cross. We might think of God as a hopeless compulsive: impelled to give, share, exult, delight...boundlessly, eternally, ecstatically!

The stability, persistence, and continuity of the Church is the expression of God's urgent desire for us. We see this in the entire life of the Church...the sacramental economy, Church buildings, art, dogma, moral ethos, care of the poor, passion for justice...but most clearly in the abiding presence of Christ in the daily Eucharist and in every tabernacle in every Church in the world. 

The urgency of Christ and his Church is not primarily negative, reactive to sin/evil/Satan/hell. Primarily it is positive: urgent to express, embody, manifest, dramatize, celebrate the abundant, eternal, infinite love of the Holy Trinity.

More broadly even, across the entire created and natural realm, the Transcendent (the Good, the True and the Beautiful) presses urgently to manifest, to communicate, to exalt. 

When I walk where I live (Bradley Beach, NJ) to the beach,  every front lawn is modestly, but beautifully offering a unique display of shrubbery, flowers, and plants. It is as if every single plant is clamoring for my attention as I walk:  "Look at me! Am I not beautiful?" And as I walk I can only nod in agreement: Yes you are beautiful. All of you. Even more awesome is the ocean itself. Spectacularly so  on a bright, dry day; or a windy, pleasant one; or even an overcast day where clouds, sky and ocean all harmonize in a soothing calm and serenity. Beauty, in all its diversity, is urgent to manifest, to be appreciated, to celebrate.

Truth, likewise, is persistent,  not in a hurry. There is no rush with this patient urgency. Time is a friend. Eventually, at the right moment, truth will manifest itself. Secrets and lies do not persist. Scholars persist endlessly to review memories and records to unveil fresh perspectives on the endlessly fascinating drama of human life.

And then the Good! Effervescent and irrepressible is the impulse to give, to care, to bless...in maternity/paternity, friendship, politics, ministry and all realms of human life. All the evil, pathology, dysfunctionality, and morbidity of the universe cannot inhibit the simple movement of the human heart, in God's grace, to love.

Jesus himself proclaimed, embodied, and implemented the Kingdom of God, in all its urgency, assertiveness, exuberance, dynamism. In union with Jesus, by the power of his Holy Spirit, we the Church do the same. His promise is that "the gates of hell will not prevail." In this image we see that here on earth hell is on the defensive, heaven is on the offensive. So, in Christ we are ever assertive, confident, forceful, triumphant; never passive, victimized, fragile or vulnerable. Certainly we will suffer, but not accept defeat; stumble but not submit; grieve, but not despair.

We are complicit with, participant in, baptized into the agency of God...urgent, efficacious, invincible, victorious. Abiding in Christ...in worship, contemplation, receptive/expectant Trust...we surrender to the urgency, the agency, the fruitfulness of the love of Christ! 


Thursday, July 31, 2025

Disenchantment Disorder, with Accompanying Anxiety N.O.S., Victimization Complex and Dystopian Preoccupations

While not listed in the DSM-IV, DD is the root cause of the 297 conditions listed there. It includes: loss of childlike trust, filial receptivity, wonder, joy, serendipity, playfulness, purpose/meaning, hope, gratitude, agency, and connectivity. Symptoms include increased anxiety, depression, apathy, disorientation, isolation, passivity, 

If one suffers four or more of the following symptoms for a period of at least six months the condition is considered clinically operative.

- Persistent, unexplained lethargy, monotony, anxiety, depression, resentment, jealousy.

- Isolation and loneliness.

- Disbelief in the transcendent/supernatural, angels and saints, heaven/hell/purgatory, miraculous healings, incorruption, bilocation, Immaculate Conception/Virgin Birth/ Assumption, sin/salvation, sacramental efficacy, ecclesial inerrancy, absolution of sins, indulgences, relics, pilgrimages and other.

- Political paranoia and dystopian hallucinations. Typically, this can include (on the left) obsessions with global warming, fascism, racism, sexism, trans/homophobia, intersectionality, and Christian nationalism. The more widely perceived TDS (Trump Derangement Syndrome) is a symptom of the deeper DD condition. Other manifestations (on the right) include xenophobia, nationalistic jingoism, conspiracy theories, and hardcore MAGAism. 

- Disinterest in romance, sex, courtship, marriage, childbearing.

- Absence from Church or synagogue for long periods of time.

- Resentment of the past, dread of the future, disconnect from the present.

GOOD NEWS:  This condition is not only treatable, but curable. Simple: return to intimacy with God in prayer, gratitude, and repentance. Confess your sins. Beg for Mercy for yourself and other. Give fervent, continuous thanks and praise. Relax, rest, remain, abide, delight, thrive, trust in His love. It really is simple.

The key is to be close to others who are close to God: who pray, who reflect God, who attract you to God. You have such, certainly, in your own family, friends, local faith community, 12-step meetings, men's and women's groups, and such. 

Be careful with psychologists as many themselves are afflicted with DD but remain undiagnosed and in deep denial.

Cut back on consumption of news and social media. Consult a variety of sources for information.

This is, of course, about God. But not just about God. The entirety of Creation, Being, Reality, society, culture, history...ALL is enchanted. Radiant with Truth, Goodness, Beauty. Delightful, fascinating, thrilling. 

Welcome, one and all, to the ineffable JOY of an enchanted cosmos!