It is a truism that each of us has within both good and bad, that every saint has a past as every sinner a future, that (as in the cartoons) an angel of light sits on one shoulder and a demon of darkness on the other. But I have been flabbergasted, again and again over my near 80 years, to see that some of us are capable, simultaneously, of both great good and immense evil.
Philosophically this does not make sense to me. As a Catholic, I know each of us is in a state of grace or state of sin. Grace is friendship with God; not perfection, but basic union. The state of mortal sin is a decisive rejection of God, a defining separation from God, an enslavement to evil. This is a hard binary. It is not for us to judge each other. Indeed, we may be unsure of our own status, so clouded is our culpability by emotional frailty and wounds. But the ontological/moral binary is clear and definite.
The logic of this model includes that both sin and grace are aggressive, expansive, active. So, if grace is strong in the soul, it is getting all the time stronger, it is never content or calm. Likewise, evil is contagious, infectious, proliferative. If it has a stronghold in the heart it is on the offensive. And so, in the long game, the two cannot coexist: both are active; eventually one prevails. There can never be a truce or a mutual understanding. Can a man persist in adultery or addictive pornography and still go out each morning to serve the poor sacrificially? I think not. Eventually good or evil will prevail. Wilhelm Reich was therapist for woman who was masturbating and praying. He told her to stop praying. He realized the two could not coexist. If she continued in prayer his crusade to "liberate" her sexually would be doomed.
It is remarkable that the greatest saints were the most emphatic in their ask for the prayer of others, in their sense of vulnerability to evil. St. Mother Teresa of Calcutta, probably the greatest saint of the last 100 years, befriended, all over the world, quadriplegic invalids and asked for their prayers, immensely efficacious as victim souls. Shortly before her death she was exorcized as she was tormented in her fragility by the oppression of Satan.
Clearly, prior to each person's "particular judgment," immediately after death, the dilemma is permanently resolved: you go downstairs or upstairs (by way of purgatory?); there is no limbo, no third option, no endless recycling, no final annihilation, no negotiated compromise!
I personally incline strongly to the theological opinion (neither endorsed nor rejected by the Church) that at the very moment of death, Christ encounters every saint and sinner, manifesting his wounds suffered for each of us, offering Mercy and Eternal Life, requesting contrition and forgiveness. In that mini-second, all ambiguity is resolved in decision and finality.
In this life none of us enjoy such clarity. A priest in confession told me I would still be struggling with a particular sin until "my body was cold in the grave four days." This colorful exaggeration was both refreshing and helpful: it set me up for the long game.
Let's ponder a long list of strikingly dramatic actors on the stage of our time (last 80 years) who did so much good and so much evil at the same time. For the most part, we are unaware of the following clearly and decisively acknowledging, in contrition and reparation, the evil done. And yet, we cannot deny the good done.
(Note dear Reader that I will resist my compulsion to rank by number. Measurement of good and evil we leave up to God.)
John F. Kennedy, Martin Luther King, Caesar Chavez. These have a personal priority for me as they were heroes of my youth: agents for the good, radiant with charm, intelligence, courage. And yet, each abused women in marital infidelity. Each exemplified the sexual revolution exploding at the time.
Fr. Bruce Ritter and Jean Vanier. These heroes of my own adulthood were perhaps the greatest disappointments for me. They both did outstanding work, with Covenant House and L'Arche. Ritter was the standard homosexual priest predator of vulnerable teen boys. Vanier was more complex and perverse: he used spiritual intimacy to abuse trusting young women. The evil is preposterous; but it does not erase the good.
Fr. Marcial Maciel. He is possibly the most personally depraved of these actors, and yet it cannot be denied that there is immense good in his legacy, Regnum Christi and Legionnaires of Christ. Two of my daughters were deeply touched in listening to him in the Vatican in 1998 when John Paul convened the Renewal Movements for the year of the Holy Spirit. My family was befriended by women from Regnum Christi and they had good influence. My daughter did her doctorate in psychology at IPS (Institute for Psychological Studies) which is sponsored by Regnum Christi. The bad done does not erase the good.
Fr. (a priest forever) Ted McCarrick. He died in disgrace, the face of the priest scandal in the USA. Also bad was his performance as Cardinal in Washington DC where he became chaplain to the pro-abortion Catholic progressives. Yet he did much good work, especially in his years as Archbishop of Newark. I know priests to whom he was personally kind. He had an intense (decidedly clerical) faith. He had enormous talent, energy and charm. Recently, a ninety-something-year-old monsignor friend told me of his continued admiration for the work he did here in Newark. He agreed to say a mass for McCarrick at my request. He would not take the standard $10 offering.
Cardinals Law and Bernadine. Again, gifted, influential prelates who did much good but are remembered respectively for neglect of the priest abuse and the misused "seamless garment" doctrine.
Bernie Madoff. For reasons I can't explain, he is a favorite of mine. He loved his family and protected them from involvement in the Ponzi scheme. He was extravagantly generous in his philanthropy and the way he treated employees and friends. He was idolized as an icon of competence and integrity in the world of finance. You do not get that level of esteem without some underlying substance. My view is that he got trapped in the scheme and then could not get out. Anyway, it was just money. Not like he was seducing someone's daughter or something.
Osama bin Laden. A multimillionaire, he left this indulgent life to fight the Soviets and then the Americans in the cause of his God (god?). His courage and commitment to his faith is exemplary. This is shared by other Jihadists. This is a false god, an idol of violence, but the virtue cannot be denied.
Franco and Salazar. Authoritarians who crushed human rights, they were also opponents of the greater evil of communist totalitarianism as well as fervent defenders of the Catholic faith. Salazar was particularly an exemplar of personal moral integrity as well as Catholic piety. These head a list of authoritarians who resisted the Soviet Empire in the Cold War and thereby offered the mixture of good and bad normal in politics: Diem, Batista, Samosa, Marcos, the Shaw of Iran and others.
Tito and Castro. Both brutal totalitarians. But Tito did resist the Soviet Union, build his economy, and kept the peace among ethnic Serbs, Croatians, Muslims and other. In light of the genocidal war that exploded when he was gone, he does not look quite so bad. Castro admittedly did lift the literacy level and offer services to the poor. In 1980, Maryknoll Magazine infamously published an article lauding Castro's accomplishments over 20 years. It was preposterously one-sided. But the good done cannot be denied.
Rev. Jimmy Baker, an Evangelical rock star preacher in the 1970s, was well received in the Catholic Charismatic Renewal. I hear him and was much impressed. With Tammy his wife, he built a wealthy empire before falling in scandals of sex and fraud. He divorced and was imprisoned. After that, he returned to ministry, renouncing the prosperity gospel in favor of an apocalyptic, survivalist version. He is now 86 years old and active on the media. I know that he loves our Lord Jesus and tirelessly proclaims him. His theology is still wacky, but that doesn't (necessarily) make him a bad person, although it doesn't help! An "Elmer Gantry on steroids" he is one of a string of talented preachers who fell into sin.
Pope Francis. A man of the poor, of deep piety, of zeal for the Gospel, Francis was confused and confusing theologically and often vented his personal resentments from the Chair of Peter. Again: the good done and the bad are both pronounced.
Donald Trump. As a moral exemplar, he is a catastrophe within a trainwreck: deeply depraved in many dimensions. Yet, he rose to power as defender of the underdog in the class war and champion of traditional-family-religious values in the culture war.
Jeffrey Epstein. This is admittedly a stretch. He did no body of great work. He systemically, compulsively groomed and abused adolescent women. I read that he had a group of friends from childhood and was loyal to them over the years. That is not nothing. The most striking thing in his story, after his astonishing accumulation of wealth, is the intense trust and loyalty he elicited: from the most wealthy, powerful, accomplished men across the globe as well as the "victims" who often returned to his company, even recruiting friends and sisters. This is the glamour of evil. But such loyalty and trust must be responsive to something real.
Vladimir Putin. A brutal tyrant and nationalistic imperialist, he does defend traditional-family-religious values against the Cultural Progressivism of the West. He is not wrong about that.
Brennan Manning A charismatic, gifted, extraordinary Franciscan, he left the priesthood; married; destroyed his marriage with his drinking; continued in Evangelical circles as a popular, influential preacher. He passionately proclaimed the Gospel: God loves us unconditionally, even in our sin. He lived this himself. He remained a flaming alcoholic until his death. He would preach a three day retreat; go on a four day bender; and then jet to his next retreat. His was a Catholic funeral in St. Rose Church, Belmar NJ, about a mile from where I sit now.
Fr. Jim Ferry, of happy memory, was spiritual Godfather for me and all of us Charismatic Catholics in NJ in the 1970s. For evangelical zeal and energy, I put him in the league of St. Paul and St. Francis Xavier. He spoke at a charismatic prayer meeting in Jersey City in Spring of 1973: after being introduced, before speaking, he fell to his knees, asking us to intercede for him to the Holy Spirit. I never forgot that! Hands down he is the most influential NJ Catholic of the last 80 years. I was puzzled by the end of his life. Sickly, he detached from leadership in the People of Hope Community he founded just as they got into trouble with Archbishop Gerity. With his charismatic and clerical credentials, he would have easily resolved the conflict. Dying, he called in a long list of friends to ask forgiveness. This ending made no sense to me until I learned he apparently had a consensual romance with an adult woman. I was not surprised or shocked: he was a man of immense virile energies and affections. This endeared him all the more to me. He is on a short lists of holy priests who impacted me and to whom (not for whom) I pray daily.
Fr. John Corapi. He ended a wildly successful life of sin (money, sex, etc.) with a powerful conversion and became a high-powered, widely influential preacher, notably on EWTN. My nephew was personally, deeply impacted by him at a men's conference. My son's mother-in-law used his tapes effectively in her prison ministry. He came into money and secretly returned to his habits of sin. When scandal erupted he went into secrecy. For about 15 years he has been off the media screen. This may be good news: a report is that he is living a private life of prayer and penance and in good standing in his religious order. He went from bad to good to bad...and now, hopefully, back to good.
Why and How the Coexistence of Such Dramatic Good and Evil?
We do not consider here the legion of gifted artists, actors, entertainers, musicians and celebrities who give us delight, beauty, truth and yet fall into spiritual chaos. For example, Kevin Spacey, among the greatest actors of his generation, was accused of sexual advances to a number of teen boys. He denies the charges; was acquitted in court; but did settle in confidential financial agreements. His career was destroyed. Does this invalidate all his work? I think not. But honestly, (call me a repressed, guilt-ridden, Irish Catholic Jansenist if you want), I cannot quite enjoy his work as much now. Another case: ex-Jesuit Rupnik, among the most celebrated Catholic artists in the world, used his spiritual status to serially abuse trusting young women. Troublingly, he remains a priest in good standing as his trial goes on forever. Is his conspicuous artwork now to be erased from Churches and sacred places? Given the sacred nature of his work and the severe gravity of his offense, I think so! We see that this commingling of good/evil and fantasy/reality arouses deep, complex questions.
I am sure, dear Reader, that you can add to this list. Also you have your own personal list, family and friends, of those who did clear good and definite evil.
A dear collaborator asked: "Why is it that over the years since the Council, SO SO SO many founders and leaders of marvelous movements have fallen into deep darkness?" It is deeply troubling.
My colleague suggested that where the Holy Spirit moves strongly for the good, the energies of hell are aroused and target the agent of mercy and truth. This makes perfect sense. Each of us, in this life, is a drama, a battleground between the two kingdoms. It is a great mystery!
So often we see that charisma, charm, energy, intelligence, influence, affection and even authentic piety are strangely, secretly, accompanied by a proclivity to depravity, especially the sexual. We cannot explain this.
Conclusion
We were pre-warned that life here is always the "weeds and wheat." Short of judgement, the particular for each of us and the general for all of us, the two cannot be precisely separated.
Thank God for Purgatory!
If God, in his infinite Mercy,-Wisdom-Justice, had not created it, we would have to make it up.
First of all, each of us gets to clean up our mess, make our amends, pay our debts, and prepare properly for an eternity of absolute holiness and happiness. Honestly, many lives seem to end incomplete, desperate for final resolution. Purgatory is a structure of Hope.
Secondly, we can help those who have passed, especially those we love, and also the above who gave so much but did such harm.
Thirdly, when we pray for the suffering souls and to the saints in heaven our life here and now is transformed by Hope, it takes on a new, joyous perspective. The heaviness of evil is lightened by the goodness of God.
Lastly, we are grateful for those who will pray for us when we pass. In purgatory we will be passive, suffering purification, but incapable of meritorious initiative of our own. We will receive God's stern Mercy and benefit from the prayers of the living.
This life on earth, "on its own," is frustrating, disappointing, futile, incomplete, tragic. But it is not "on its own." It is transitory. It is a test. It is preparation for the Real Thing, heaven forever.
May God be Merciful...and Just...to the above...and to all of us!